hello.
i decided you might like to hear from me.
so, hello there.


it's valentines day today.
i want to talk to my friends.
i don't like the fires in melbourne.
i'm fucking tired.
i just ate dinner.
i watched bejamin button today.
i watched seven pounds today.
i would like to get into the exchange program.
i would like to go with my mum next time she buys bathers.
daniel is easy to have conversations with.
anyone whos reads this won't know who daniel is.
daniel is christinas boyfriend.
i learned how to jump start a car today.
i'm going to do english homework tomorrow.
facts are so much easier to list than feelings.
i felt sick today.
i was happy today.
i was sad today.
i need to stop now.
and sleep.




ilove------------------------------you?
happy valentines day <3

sooooooooooooo wats goin on?
iv got nuthin to say but i also got nuthin else to do so im doin this heheh
i arrive in melbourne on the 7th and depart on the 26th....both in january haha damn i need longer than 2 and a half weeks home ;D






i rlly need a scanner so i can show you guys my actual art work haha
but guess what?! my sister got a digital camera that she doesnt rlly need or want and is letting me use it luuucky i guess tho it means shes got sumthin over me now haha dammit






heheh everyones going away these holidays =[ hmmm that means im gonna have nuthin to do before i come to melb..... dnt care tho cos im on a mojor high right now and it wont end till i get back from aus





anyway thats basically everything i have to say right now so yeah ill try and get some art up soon if i can and yeah

well how do you start off an entry titled 'satisfaction'?
really, is everyone expecting me to say somthing along the lines of 'my guy satisfied me on the weekend'? or somthing like 'im a single mother and not satisfied with my life'? i dunno if thats wat you thought of when the word satisfaction was mentioned but it certainly trigged those kinda thoughts in my head...

well the real subject of this journal is satisfaction and its lack of appearance in my life...
im bored and dissatisfied with everything i, or anyone else for that matter does.
theres no other way to describe it and i dont know what else to say. im just not satisfied arghhhhh i really want to scream but i cant becausse after i do i will still have a severe lack of SATISFACTION.

anyway heres the beggining of a story that ive started writing...i dont know what will happen in the end but so far it seems to be going okay...

rejected. again. usually, i could charm over any hard arse punk and not get punched in the nose, i could even take on the hardest, bitchiest Girl and not get a hair on my body harmed, but you know what? this one situation that had always got the better of me seemed to be one hard arse punk bitch i couldnt bring round. no matter how charming and talented i was.

the education system...yeah it sucks for any normal teenager, but for me it was easy. good looks, brilliant charm, football team captain, i was everything anyone ever wanted to be, and of course, i knew it.


.....see where im going with this? haha should be interesting in the end...dunno im open for suggestions...

yknow its my birthday today?
yeah i know its hard to believe...but half of my friends didnt even remember...my close friends...
i dunno maybe ill be pissed but yknow right now im kinda numb...

...
wtf guys...
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wtf isnt anyone talkin to me...
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i didnt get one email from any of you...
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for 5 days...
...
wtf...

is everyone pissed at me or sumthin cause that would be soo freakin munted its not funny...im not even in the same freakin country...
AND noones on msn...WTC?!?!

anyway...even tho im still so totally confused im gonna go onto other matters

not that i didnt know this already but
MY MUM IS SUCH A BITCH.
freakin hell shes so annoying and shes so obnoxious...i dunno what her problem is but she is having serious mood swings and being so foul...

yeah i went camping for easter...it was good except for that i got rlly sick on the second last day and yeah
theres like something wrong with my breasts and i dont know what it is...i woke up (well it wasnt rlly waking up cause i wasnt asleep) and i was in sooo much pain i was lying there and i was like 'i have to get up, i have to get up, im gonna be sick if i dont have an asprin right now' so i got up and i woke up my parents and all i could say was 'it hurts' then i walked to the car and got a disprin...this was at like 1 in the morning...yeah it helped a bit but i was still in pain...i went back to my tent and i still couldnt sleep cause of pain so then i was reading my book by the light of my lamp thing and then it ran out of batteries...i know wtf? why did that have to happen to me?
but yah at around 5 the pain killer started to wear off so i was in agony again i was trying so hard not to make a noise because i was sharing a tent with my sisters and i didnt want them to wake up so i had tears streaming down my face and i was shaking from the cold and pain...my mum had told me earlier to go and have a shower in the morning to try and ease the pain so i was thinking i should go have a shower but it was still dark so i couldnt get up...eventually i got up anyway at about half 6 and had a shower anyway...so yeah i was so dizzy from lack of sleep and i was still shaking from cold and pain as the pain kllers had totally worn off by then so i was sick...i know you thought it couldnt get any worse...then i collapsed...yeap...i eventually managed to get up and get dressed and it was lucky that i had gotton up so early cause there was noone in there...yeah the shower helped a bit but i had another shower at like 8 when everyone had gotton up that helped heaps but i was still rlly dizzy and i still hurt quite a bit...yeah it was all hell in one night...

im still kinda sore but ive showered heaps and am feeling heaps better now im gonna go to school tomorrow...
oh im going out with my mates tomorrow after school its just like the wednesday group! 8D now i just need to find someone to totally perve on in my group...rofl
yeah we're making this guy (kevin) who likes rikka buy us all 2 scoops each of ice-cream its soo hilarious cause theres like 9 of us roflroflrofl hes spending like 60 bucks on us hahahaha

anyway i dont want you guys to be mad at me so you better tell me whats up or ill just keep on apologising ;D